Precious Thoughts

Aku memilih bila membaca sesuatu penulisan. Sesuatu yang tipikal, aku kurang minat untuk baca (I opt for not to read). A few random peoples said that this particular blog is good! Kemudian aku pun cuba lah bukak blog penulisan yang manusia itu maksudkan. Selepas baca, I get boring, not even make it to half page. I close it. Typical. Common. Ive read thousands of those which sound exactly the same. Bukan senang hendak menulis ni. Untuk orang yang tidak tahu menulis, dia akan pakai tala je apa yang dia rasa tanpa editing, tanpa timbang tara, tanpa memikirkan sensitiviti. Menulis memerlukan skill. Dan nak garap skill tu sikit punya payah!  Betul, aku choosy bab2 membaca. My judgment does not based on how good his/her language. I’m not expecting them to use bombastic words either. I’m looking for versatility. Critical but not boring, funny but not obscene, modest; with less mediocre, down to earth; but brave. Do you get what I mean? But I have only found a few. A simple thoughts of w...

"Next time when you feel you are perfect, try walking on water."

You hold me without touch. You keep me without chains. I never wanted anything so much; than to drown in your love,  and not feel your reign. *Something always brings me back to you. It never takes too long.

Allah sedang berbicara denganku; Erti sabar.

Chinese people have problems pronouncing my name. Atleast over the phone. I'm not sure if one on one it would be more disastrous. Earlier last week my boss had asked me to call the bank for this particular loan file. Operator: Hi Good morning, XXX bank. How can I help you? (in polite tone) Me: ya, hi. I'm calling from Chen Wong & Co. May I know whether the redemption cheque has been release yet? Your reference number is Loan-579746. Its regarding a client named Susan Peters. Operator: Can I get your name please? (still in polite tone) Me: Ummu. Operator: Sorry, whats that? Me: Ummu. U double m U. Operator: (chinese accent come out) Umur?? you mean your name as in age aah?? Another situation.. I've been instructed to call the Purchasers lawyer also regarding their cheque. Operator: X & Y associates. Me: Hi, Im Ummu calling from Chen Wong & Co. Mitchelle Please. Operator: Yep, hold on.  tutt..tutt.. Mitchelle: Hi Mitchelle speaking. (cheerful tone) Me: Hi Mitc...

I just got back from OU, trying to find a suitable gift for someone on his/her upcoming birthday. Dissapointed because it turns out the one I'm looking for is no longer available. Anyway, bukan itu sebenarnya yang nak aku cerita, lepas cari barang yang dah tak available tu, aku pun nak balik lah, so i hail for a cab. In the cab, pakcik tu pun bborak lah dgn aku. Mula tanya dr mana, pastu dah pakcik tu peramah benor aku pun mula lah bcerita pung pang pung pang dkt pakcik tu. Tetibe masuk bab kerja plk.. Aku tak ingat aku cakap ape tapi lbh kurang gini lah conversation nya,  Aku: Saya baru kerja je pakcik, tp still takut2 lg. Boss saya anggap saya tau semua benda dan saya nie bila dia suruh something saya macam tercengang2 sbb saya tak tau ape yang dia maksudkan, sy nak tanya tapi sy takut kalau sy tanya banyak kali dia fed up pula sbb sy jenis lambat cket. Pakcik Taxi: Alah tak de apelah! Takde ape. Pedulikan dia siapa. Dia boss ke, professor ke, dia manusia juga. Anggap je kau le...

Aku kecil hati. Tapi aku kalau kecil hati dgn orang aku jenis tak cakap. Aku harap orang tu faham sendiri mungkin dari cara percakapan, layanan, body language, semua tu adalah hint2 yang aku tunjuk secara obvious. Tapi bila aku kecil hati dan aku cuba luahkan, aku dilabel sebagai terlalu sensitive. Jadi aku mengambil sikap untuk tak tunjuk rasa sebenar tu. Ada perkara yang ingin aku kongsi dan luahkan. But it seems at this moment no one is available. Betul lah, hujungnya, Allah sahaja yang tak mengecewakan. Sekadar luahan though. Tak lebih dari itu.. :')