Precious Thoughts

"Akak, kenapa akak xletak gambar akak dekat Facebook?" tanya aku smbil makan coki2 org punya. "Xdelah Ummu.. Akak wajib jaga nama baik suami akak. Memang xsalah letak gmbr muka kita. Tapi bagi akak seorang perempuan muslimah dia tak expose diri dia sgt dekat org. Sesape je boleh view gambar akak. Itu semua termasuk dalam menjaga maruah. Tambah pulak akak dah bersuami tapi lelaki lain duk ralit menengok gambar akak. Itu kan dah defeat purpose kita sebagai wanita muslim Ummu." kata  firmate ku sambil sibuk mencari Criminal Procedure Code. "Oh….." coki2 yang daku makan terjatuh diatas lantai dan kemudian disapu oleh Senior partner ku yg tetibe rajin-bebeno-menyapu lantai. 1 - 0.

In my mind, I beat you to dust. And for what? The pain u gave me? The sorrows that you paint? The humiliation that you portrayed? The grief you penetrate? You, my dear, Are not on the right track. Your simple words just don’t move me.  ur minor.  I'm major. You have just run out of ammunition. You're shooting blanks now, you son of a gun.

"I'm always here." Once, you said to me when I'm in need. I hold on to those words when in fact your action was against it. Once. Twice. Thrice. Pointless. I should have hung my faith and wrap it for the ONE and only. but instead I'm giving it to you and you crush it.  Oi. Sedar diri. I'm an ant. You're the bully. That’s just what it is. End of story.

So far alarm iphone tak menyakitkan hati. Pelik juga aku. Senang pulak nak bangun bila dgr alarm bbunyi.  Fon Nokia? Allah.. Aku snooze 88x.

I'm emotional. cepat tersentuh bila mana manusia menabur budi dekat aku. Nak cakap dekat sini, aku hargai segala ilmu yang pensyarah2 aku berikan. Terpancar segala keikhlasan mrk bila mengajar. Bersungguh2 sampai satu tahap aku rasa ak ni tak layak dapat pensyarah sebaik mereka. "How are you?" "Fine alhamdulillah Dr. How are you?" "demam sikit. Tgklah ubat saya, segenggam. You're doing good?" "Im doing good Dr. thank u for asking.." "anything I can help you with?" "Actually.. %*(*()()#@!)*^^%" (aku malas nak bgtau ape yg aku cerita dkt dia. Basically pasal belajar. "I see. Okay I'll help you." "For the purpose of your exam, Mareva Injunction, Anton Piller order and arrest and attachment definitely will come out." "How should we go about it sir?" "You have to discuss what is Mareva, if the question concerns of mareva.. In terms of your question, the ...

As much as I try to convince that it is not worth it.. They keep on stumble doing the same mistake. As much as I try to shield them from pain.. They end up cutting the edge of their own bruises. As much responsible I feel to protect, they keep on slipping from my grip. As much as I tore because of the pain they suffer.. they are blind to appreciate.  That dark force is slipping right through you.. And I can no longer save you.  Not that I can't. Now, I refused to.  **Novel reality yang tak berkesudahan**

I've been watching a spiritual series called Law Ka Na Bainana or if Beloved Muhammad is with us, which tells us about the good traits and a life journey of Nabi Muhamad s.a.w. I'm sure everybody is aware of that series since it was a hit now. Bila tgk series tu xbhenti2 rasa menyesal dgn segala salah silap dgn manusia.. Dengan mak ayah.. dengan adik beradik.. dgn kawan2.. I've been thinking hard and I've decided to make a baby steps in improving certain things in life..  BTW, nak share one of the episodes here.  Begitu tingginya tingkah laku Nabi Muhamad s.a.w. Hubungan baginda bukan hanya antara manusia yang ada disekelilingnya. Tetapi memiliki hubungan dengan haiwan dan benda yang tidak bernyawa. Tentang perkara ini, Nabi Muhamad SAW memberi nama kepada binatang dan barang miliknya. Seperti, unta nya diberi nama Qaswa. Baginda mempunyai seekor baghal yang bernama Doldol. Seekor keldai yang bernama Ya'fur. Nabi juga memiliki seekor kuda berwarna peran...